sometimes I hate you

Three Halloween Costumes in One!

I don't want it

Today I woke up. I woke up quite a lot. Every hour all night because of my insistent cough, but I gave up and got up at what my clock said was 9 in the morning. My smart clock is so stupid and behind on the times. Literally. It was 10. Anyway, I spent the day with my mother and while at the grocery store, we decided to buy a pumpkin. Carving a pumpkin is an activity I can accomplish without the use of my voice so I decided to do it up despite my previous distain for it. I carved my pumpkin to represent how my head feels; on fire.

you're a total prostitute

If I don't stop coughing I'm either going to die of cough exhaustion or lung expulsion.

I am/was a medical transcriptionist so those are real things.
No matter what Google says.

But, I guess my album will go number one.
Or at least get us more hits on myspace.

your kind of music? absolutely.

Played a show tonight at the Fuel House Coffee Co with my band. It was a really nice place, I must say. And a pretty good time despite it being basically empty until the last five or so songs, the fact that I practically lost my voice, Jamie lost a very long piece of hair, and Nathan fell asleep at his drums and was thus immediately fired from the band. But, it's okay, we went to the Oar House later to find Randy (the dastardly crank caller of Millville) and instead found a new drummer (pictured)! His name is Ferrari and he's the coolest guy....ever. We're gonna blow the fuck up, but in a good way.

you can shine your shoes and wear a suit

Samuel is much cuter than Mexican food.
And guess what he's going to be for Halloween?

A penguin!

get the hell away from me, punk ass bitch!

Man, the baby looks really different than the last time I saw him. Delicious looking, but not at all like a baby. Okay, alright, I admit it, I never saw Samuel today! He's not been turned into a plate of Mexican food! We had planned to go see him, but like most things that are planned by my family, it was canceled very last minute. Supposedly we're going to see him tomorrow. But I won't hold my breath. I can never hold it very long without giving myself an asthma attack anyway.

take the money and run

If you had a rare gem, where would you hide it? Well, if you were Jamie, you'd hide it right in plain view! You'd dangle it right from your rear view mirror in your car leaving it open to being stolen at any given moment! And if you were Jamie, you wouldn't even notice it was missing! If you were Jamie, you'd be more worried about your lite rock lanyards!
I just don't understand some people. No respect for priceless jewels. Some people don't deserve to have them if they aren't going to appreciate and care for them!

you made me love you, I didn't wanna do it

I don't know why certain people are so surprised that I'm going to be Nicole Richie for Halloween. Do they think I can't pull it off? I can't imagine why.......

my sweet little religion you mean everything to me

Good Charlotte shows in Maryland? Sub-par.
Army of Me shows in Maryland? Fan-tastic!

There was fans being brought up to dance on stage and fans getting personally serenaded and special performances of "Better Run" and "Be By". It's too bad Nathan didn't attend THIS show because it blew their show at the North Star Bar away! Though, I'd like to exchange bar environments. There's this thing that they do in Baltimore that I haven't seen in for months. I think it's called "smoking". I've been absolutely spoiled by NJ state laws. People at Fletcher's were all, "Sucks to your as-mar!" and then they were pretty concerned about "curfew" and getting people out....these are all things I just do not condone. I didn't drive 2 hrs for this sort of under 21 treatment!

how can i catch up when i still want you?

For all the people out there that like to prank:
Pranks and jokes can be great, but they just are not funny when they screw with a person's fragile emotions! But if you must, at least quickly retract the statement as so the person's emotions won't be left in absolute agony for too long. I guess it also helps if you later announce that you've been celibate for three years too. And are very sweet about some Twizzlers.

For all the people out there confused by this blog:
How does it feel to want?

it feels so good from where I'm standing

Played my first gig at Neena's Brick Oven Pizza in Sewell, NJ, but I hope it's not my last. It was a very nice place for starters, but more than that, it was a paying gig. It's not often that I get flat paid and even more rare when the pay is actually decent. I'm not rolling in the benjamins now, but it was definitely great for the amount of time I played. Just under 2 hrs. Which is half what I normally play for half the money. And what's more is there will be a recording of my performance available for others to hear as soon as my "best friend", Will, gets it finished! Free recording and pay? Holl-er.

are you there? I'm having trouble finding you

I have to apologize to my two readers, I've been so lazy with this blog lately. But not without good reason. I've been musically busy and I can only update it on a certain computer so it's somewhat a pain, but I press on! Jamie and I went to Uno after the open mic in Pitman and our second trip to Best Buy and Jamie got this magical drink. I don't know what it was to be honest. But thankfully it wasn't any sort of potion that shrunk her to the size of a thumb or grow bigger than a house. That would have been inconvenient.

why am I watching Field of Dreams again?

On Friday night, I burnt my tongue on some delicious chai tea from Bogart's. Sunday, I asked my mother how long it takes for a burnt tongue to heal. She said, "a couple of hours". Well, now it's Monday night and my tongue still hurts and still I can't really taste right. And to add insult to injury, a few canker sores have popped up in my mouth. What did I do to deserve such a difficult mouth?

Speaking of difficult, I wish my lungs could make it through the beginnings of autumn without giving up on me. Sucks to my as-mar!

ugggggghhh

Someone please tell me why I'm watching the "E! True Hollywood Story" of Jessica and Ashlee Simpson. It's really just pissing me off. Especially the part about Ashlee and her career and how cool it was that the world got to "see how a record is made" on her show! PAH! That being said, it's about time I just gave up on this day. All I've really done is lounge around and watch TV (asides from going out briefly with Jamie so she could eat). But I think of all the dumb shit I've watched, this has been by far the most aggravating and stupid. And I've been having a lot of nightmares lately so no doubt I'll have more tonight after putting myself through this torture! Oh God now they're talking about her "acid reflux" -- I hate this propaganda! Though, it's seriously funny when her friends cry about her career.

dear time....

Fuck you, PeePaw!

Best Friends Forever and Ever Just to Spite You,
Pitch

now your majesty has made fun of the sanctity of marriage

The relationship between siblings is interesting. One day you're getting along just fine as friends would and then the next day, you're so mad you could scream. But, unlike with a lot of friendships, you hardly ever have to say your sorry to your siblings. The next time you see them, it's just all in the past. I think that's kind of cool. Unconditional love is badass. So, even though I did sort of hate my brother the past few days, I'll probably love him again tomorrow. And if he reads this blog and gets annoyed, I know he'll get over it and won't be able to stop himself from loving me again too! In the words of Dave Grohl, "hurray, hurray!"

will nature adapt to that outfit?

The weather lately has been crazy. Just Sunday the weather was lovely and warm and nice enough to be chilling in Wildwood without a jacket (as my mother is in the photo). And then the heavens opened on Tuesday and it rained and rained until it got cold. I didn't really mind the thunder and lightening and strong wind until my mother got on a plane this morning to go to Texas. Then I tossed and turned and panicked in my bed until she landed safely. Miss her already!
On another completely different note, Ye Old "GOAR" House friggin' loves JeNell & the Yets! Pitch, time, and pocket are killin' it lately!

please sir, sir, can I have one to surge me sir, please sir?

It's after midnight so it's officially John Lennon's 67th birthday and I thought I would do my part in commemorating it with this amusing little movie trailer I found. I've already had a good cry thanks to some of the videos and thoughts conjured by videos found at www.imaginepeace.com and if you haven't checked it out, you should. It may not save any lives or stop any wars, but it's a lovely dedication and is just amazing looking; I wish I could go to Iceland!

On another note, I would like to thank John Lennon for inspiring me to hold my nose when I swim. I read that some people died from bacteria going up their nose while swimming and into their brain and essentially eating their brain until they died. It's incredibly rare, but it'll never happen to me! Always hold my nose! Thanks John! Just another way you changed my life!

And no, I will never ever stop loving John Lennon or get over it or move on! This love is real, baby, and real love lasts a lifetime! :P

I don't know about you, but I need a drink.

Thanks, Foo Fighters! You don't just bring people together, you bring families together too! Unfortunately, you couldn't do anything about me getting laid off. Worry not, readers, I have the potential of having a lucrative career in the paper shredding business! Don't hate cuz you ain't!

it's like a horror movie

All day long I want to go to sleep. And then I go to bed and I can't sleep. I make absolutely no sense, but I am fuckin tired. I guess that's what comes from having the best practice ever.

sleeps in the hole in the road

High Anxiety - Whenever you’re near
Ooh, ’Xiety - It’s you that I fear
My heart’s afraid to fly
It’s crashed before
But then you take my hand
My heart wants to soar
once more. (key change!)

... High Anxiety, you win.

Yeah, it's just one of those Mel Brooks days, I guess. Making a lot of decisions really screws with my head. I don't ever want to be a "Decision Maker" aka the President. There is just far too many decisions and those decisions effect thousands of lives whereas the decisions I'm making only effect a limited number of people. Hm. That's probably a good perspective to have about it, really. But it doesn't seem to be helping. I'm going to go vomit.


ps. thanks for the help, decision making friends! just trying to make a decision amongst all that.

you always did have such good pants on

I took this photo today during a lovely brisk walk with Gizmo, Zoee, and my busy and important mother. It's pretty obvious when you look at these photos close up which end is really up, but before you do click to enlarge them, have a guess! Though I know ya'll are going to lie. Bert McCrakin told me about people like you!

And is it just me or is it totally crazy that such beautiful landscape is in MILLVILLE? But, if you want to visit this spot yourself, wear bug spray. I came home with a seriously swollen hand after the mosquitoes attempted to devour me hand first.

Gizmo is makin me crazy

Jamie, I've been practicing at home and I can so cross my eyes without looking at your finger! I'm kicking ass in "Are you Smarter than a 4 yr Old?" Don't hate cuz you ain't! I had another picture of me doing that cross one eye thing but it's too terribly embarrassing looking for me to post for the world to see. I have an album dropping soon! Gotta be cool!

ew, she shot him in the head.

Gizmo and I have taken a few walks through Mt. Pleasant Cemetery recently. It's basically across the street from my house and it's a good place to take a quiet walk so Gizmo doesn't get honked at so much. While we were there today, I was inspired to make a little something. I don't have the same sort of camera functions on my camera as Jamie does so this isn't anywhere near as cool as the teaser she made, but I just thought it was a cool way to show a panoramic view of our old hometown cemetery. Whenever I'm there, I try to find the oldest gravestone that I can and today I found one with someone born in 1760. I thought that was pretty awesome. I need to get over this cold so I can do musical things instead of time wasters!